An emotion can sweep over in a flash. I ask my Higher self to help me understand and I get a dream where I am in fear. I feel scared. I feel like someone is going to get me and I have trouble screaming for help because I’m too scared to speak. I’ve had countless dreams on having trouble screaming, getting my voice out, when I need to most. I fought back in my dream. I was courageous enough to get up and fend for my sisters who needed my help. But, I was scared and I couldn’t scream at first. I eventually was able to voice it and nobody came to help me. I know in past lives I’ve been suppressed and unable to voice my opinions, just like I kind of was growing up. I felt oppressed and scared to stand up for myself, and when I did in some way I had to put up walls like no other. I acted out of anger, defense and oppressing myself by my own thoughts. I used to always think I was under someone else because of looks or money or status… in total fear.
What matters is. Allowing my voice to be heard, in all of its glory. My truth. No matter how much my ego may think I can’t. I am valid. I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t matter. I am working through these fears as I know they aren’t real. The fear of not being able to dream big. The fear of not being able to make enough money doing what I love. The fear of being stomped on and criticized. The fear of not making it. All a bunch of bull crap. Whatever situation may arise, I am strong enough to go through what is needed. I am strong enough to say no to imaginary and irrelevant fearful scenes played. Fear is knocking at me. Will I believe it? No. Why? Because I choose my own truth, which is Love. Which is God. I see the fear that runs this world and I need not to choose to follow it in any way. I tune in. I know these are just patterns being brought up for release so I can continue moving into my badass self. I ask for the awareness, understanding and clarity in releasing these outdated patterns that are no longer for my highest self now. I know why I am here. I feel it, see it, and know it. I follow universal guidance and inner knowing. I am here evolving. I am blessed. This is it.
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